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Marie’s Recovery Story

I first realised I had Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD) when I came across Scott Granet’s ‘Personal Journey with BDD’ on YouTube while googling my symptoms. Everything he said made sense to me. It was like a lightbulb moment if there ever was one. I remember showing my partner the video and just repeating, ‘this is me!’

For me, BDD has always centred on my hair. Over time, what started as insecurity turned into a relentless obsession. My days were dominated by mirror checking – not just the bathroom mirror, but oven doors, windows, car reflections, anything that might reassure me or confirm my worst fears. I would measure both sides of my hair to make sure they were even, repeatedly comb and re-comb, snip at my bangs with scissors, and compare myself endlessly to other people. I studied strangers in the street, celebrities on TV, even my own photos from years earlier, constantly searching for evidence that I was either acceptable or deeply flawed.

The compulsions didn’t stop there. I rotated between multiple hairdressers, often booking unnecessary appointments in the hope that a ‘fix’ would finally make me feel okay. I stockpiled styling products, hairdryers, vitamins, and treatments. I sought reassurance from family and friends, asking them if I looked alright, or making comments like ‘look what the wind has done to my hair’ just to hear it was acceptable. I avoided photographs, windy days, or hats that might ruin my hairstyle.

This wasn’t vanity. It was survival. My hair was the first thing on my mind when I woke up and the last thing I thought of before I went to sleep. At my worst, it consumed 90 – 95% of my daily life. When my hair felt ‘wrong’, I felt worthless, unlovable, and unsafe. My core belief became: If my hair is good, everything will be good. If my hair isn’t, life has very little meaning.

Diagnosis and Seeking Help

The turning point came when I ordered Scott Granet’s book Body Dysmorphic Disorder, Mine and Yours. I completed the exercises and finally felt armed with the right words to explain what I was going through. I remember walking into a psychologist’s office with the book in hand and saying, ‘this is what I have. She dismissed me, wanting to do talk therapy instead. It was crushing, because I knew that wasn’t what I needed.

I didn’t give up. Eventually, I found a psychologist who understood Exposure and Response Prevention (ERP). At first, even she wasn’t sure, she thought my symptoms were “just OCD.” But after our second session, she acknowledged that while my behaviours were obsessive-compulsive, the fact that they were all tied to a perceived flaw aligned directly with BDD. At the same time, I started taking SSRI medication. I can honestly say I would not have been able to do ERP without it. ERP is brutally hard work – resisting the urge to check or fix, sitting with the anxiety, letting the thoughts come and go. The medication didn’t ‘change who I was’, it simply dulled the edges enough that I could tolerate the exposures and break the cycle. As my GP told me when I asked if the meds would make me different: “They’ll just help you get back to being the person you were before.”

Therapy gave me practical coping strategies: limiting mirror checking, resisting reassurance seeking, cutting down avoidance, and leaning into values-based living. Progress showed itself in small moments – being able to leave the house without checking my hair a dozen times, or tolerating discomfort when my hair wasn’t sitting ‘perfectly’.

The biggest change was learning that my worth is not dictated by my hair. My advice to anyone considering help is this: to go for it and reach out for support. If you can, find a therapist who who understands BDD or ERP, and don’t be afraid of medication. With the right combination, change is possible.

Progress

It has now been three years since my initial diagnosis, and my life has improved immensely. I am no longer stuck in constant thought loops. I can enjoy time with my family, focus on my work, and live without BDD dictating every waking moment. Recovery, though, is ongoing. I can’t afford to ‘drop the ball.’ I still face challenges around haircut time, which almost always trigger anxiety and occasionally relapses. I’ve had two or three relapses this past year, but compared to life before treatment, that’s minimal. The difference now is that I can manage them: I practice exposures, I resist compulsions (mostly), and I remind myself not to beat myself up when I slip.

Medication continues to play a role, as does ERP. Even when I feel ‘good’, I know it’s important to keep up the work – to avoid sliding back into rituals, to practice resisting urges, and to live according to values rather than appearance. I spend less time engaging with rituals and more time being present with my family. I’ve learned that I am more than my hair. I can still be a loving mother, wife, daughter, and friend regardless of how I look. Recovery hasn’t meant eliminating bad days, but it has given me back my quality of life

If there’s one message I’d want someone else with BDD to take from my story, it’s this: you’re not alone, and you’re not broken. There is hope, and there is help. With the right treatment and support, life can get better – not perfect, but real, meaningful, and worth living.

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We’d love to know the impact the BDD Foundation has had on you… big or small!


Maybe you found community, joined a support group, used our resources to support a loved one, or simply felt less alone. We’re creating our next Impact Report and would love to include voices from our community. This is really important for our continued funding and ability to maintain our services. 

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BDD Collection of Poetry

We are honoured to introduce a powerful collection of poetry exploring the complex realities of BDD, written by contributors from our creative community. Each piece offers an honest, authentic glimpse into the journey of living with BDD, from the darkest struggles to moments of profound healing. These writers, at various stages of their recovery, share their voices with courage and vulnerability, creating a collection of shared experience that we hope will resonate with you. It is our honour to present their work, and we invite you to connect with these words, finding comfort, understanding, and hope on your own journey of healing.

We would love for this collection to continue growing. If you are interested in contributing to the poetry collection, please email us on volunteers@bddfoundation.org 📩

Ireland Based Research Participants

Researchers at Trinity College Dublin are exploring the experiences of individuals with body dysmorphic disorder (BDD)

Participation involves multiple interviews (3 with each person) with the hope to develop a better understanding of what this is like for people who struggle with BDD in their lives.

To participate in this study, participants must:

  • Be aged over 18
  • Meet the criteria for or have a diagnosis of body dysmorphic disorder (BDD)
  • Live in Ireland

Please contact Faye Darcy (darcyfa@tcd.ie) for more information.

Overcoming BDD Programme Facilitators Needed

Come and join us! We are looking for new volunteer peer facilitators to support the delivery of Cycle 10 of the Overcoming BDD Programme

About the Project

The Overcoming BDD Programme is a 20-week online, peer-led, self-help programme developed by experts Professor David Veale and Dr. Rob Willson. It combines CBT techniques with peer-led support to help individuals (18+) overcome BDD. Following structured phases, volunteer facilitators with lived experience provide a safe, supportive space for recovery. Participants learn practical CBT strategies to reduce symptoms, combat isolation, and build long-term recovery practices.

About the role

We are looking for a new volunteer to join the team and co-facilitate the online sessions to guide participants through the 20 week programme. For this role, it’s important to have a very good understanding of BDD and its impact. We’re looking for volunteers with strong facilitation skills, empathy and the ability to make others feel welcome and comfortable.

The time commitment is 2.5 hours per week (evening), for 20 weeks (May 2025 – October 2025), plus 2 training sessions before the role commences. We invite applications from people with direct/ indirect lived experience of BDD, or direct lived experience of a related condition, as well as people who have received CBT and who have skills in group facilitation or peer-support.

This is a unique and rewarding role, with the opportunity to support and guide individuals through the 20 week group programme. You will have the chance to work alongside some amazing facilitators who have previously delivered the programme, and develop your own skills in peer support.⁠

How to apply

Please submit a CV and a personal statement (max 600 words) to gem@bddfoundation.org which highlights the following:

  • Your (direct/indirect) experience with BDD or a related condition
  • Why you would like to apply for this position
  • Your relevant experience, skills and qualities

Please submit your CV and personal statement to gem@bddfoundation.org by 12 midday on 19th September 2025

Please note, this post is open to those based in the UK, age 18+ and is subject to an enhanced DBS check.

Beating BDD Podcast #33 – Liv Wood

“It’s completely possible to see the light at the end of the tunnel, and to reach that light.”

This episode features Olivia Wood (Liv), who shares her journey with undiagnosed autism and ADHD, as well as body dysmorphic disorder (BDD). Liv explains how learning to understand her conditions helped her build self-esteem and self-compassion and reclaim her life from BDD.


You can download the transcript for this episode here:

BDD, Caregiver Experiences and Relational Accommodation

Recent research sheds new light on what caregivers go through when someone they love is struggling with Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD)

When a loved one has BDD or severe anxiety about their appearance, it doesn’t just affect them – it often impacts the whole family. Many family members find themselves constantly adjusting their behaviour to try to ease the person’s distress – a pattern known as Relational Accommodation.[1].

This might mean helping them avoid mirrors, offering endless reassurance, or even changing day-to-day routines to avoid triggering their anxiety.

But while these adjustments come from a place of love and care, research suggests they can actually make things harder in the long run – both for the person with BDD and for the people supporting them.[2]

What Did This Study Explore?

This study led by Deanna Fallah as part of her Doctorate in Clinical Psychology at the University of Surrey was the first to ask:

  • How do family members respond to the challenges that come with this?
  • What is it like to live with and care for an adult with BDD or severe appearance-related anxiety?

Who Took Part?

Eight mothers of adult children (aged 18+) with BDD took part in one-on-one interviews. Most were in their 50s, and all spoke honestly and movingly about how their lives had been shaped by their loved one’s struggles.

From their stories, four powerful themes emerged.

Theme 1: Response to BDD occurs in the context of distress

For many of the mothers, their instinct was clear: do whatever it takes to stop their child from suffering. Their responses to BDD were often driven by a deep, almost innate need to minimise distress – not just for their child, but for themselves too.

“as a parent, you’ll just do anything to stop your child being in that state…”

Some mothers described living in a near-constant state of fear that their child might relapse, or that their distress could lead to crisis or harm. For several participants, past experiences had been deeply traumatic, including moments where their child expressed suicidal thoughts or engaged in self-harm linked to their BDD.

These moments left lasting emotional scars, and they powerfully shaped how mothers responded to BDD symptoms going forward, often increasing their drive to accommodate, soothe, or avoid confrontation, even when they knew it might not help long-term.

“I could not leave him unattended, at all because, erm, I mean, he was a suicide risk.”

Theme 2: Relational Accommodation and self-image continuously shape each other

Caring for someone with BDD doesn’t happen in a vacuum – it affects your sense of who you are. The mothers in this study shared how their responses to BDD, especially the ways they accommodated their child’s distress, shaped how they saw themselves, not just as parents, but as people more broadly.

“It’s changed me as a person… I’m far more empathetic about, er, people’s challenges”

For some, going above and beyond to help became central to their identity. Others struggled with guilt or self-judgment, questioning whether they were doing the right thing. Either way, their role as a caregiver wasn’t just something they did, it became part of how they defined themselves.

At the same time, their existing beliefs and values deeply influenced the way they approached their child’s BDD. For example, some felt a strong moral responsibility to protect their child from emotional pain, while others drew on personal beliefs about what “good parenting” should look like.

“it [RA] makes me feel like I’m a better parent because I’m showing empathy and kindness and understanding to my daughter who’s poorly…”

Theme 3: The gains and losses experienced in relationships

The impact of BDD and RA didn’t stay between parent and child – it often rippled out, affecting the wider family and social circle. Mothers spoke about how the distress, intensity, and emotional demands of supporting someone with BDD put strain on marriages, sibling relationships, and friendships.

Sometimes, this led to a sense of isolation or disconnection from people who didn’t understand.

“they don’t really understand what it’s like to live with someone that’s got it unless they come and live with you for a while.”

 But it also drew some mothers closer to others who shared similar experiences or values, like friends or professionals who truly “got it.”

“I’m very lucky. I have really supportive friends who are really good and they live nearby… I think that’s the thing that kind of gets me through a lot of the time.”

For many participants, navigating this tension became part of the emotional work of caregiving – balancing their child’s needs with the expectations, judgments, or misunderstandings of others.

Theme 4: How time impacts understanding and experience of relational accommodation and BDD

Mothers described how their understanding of BDD – and their own responses to it – changed over time.

This evolving awareness sometimes brought empowerment, allowing mothers to set healthier boundaries, speak more openly, or seek outside support. For others, it brought new forms of grief or self-doubt, as they looked back on earlier choices with the benefit of hindsight.

“with hindsight, erm, and knowing a lot more about BDD, erm, I would say none of it was helpful.”

While this study provides valuable insight, it is important to acknowledge some limitations. The sample consisted solely of mothers, predominantly from White British backgrounds, which may not reflect the full diversity of families affected by BDD. Future research should aim to include diverse genders, ethnicities, and types of relationships beyond the parent-child dynamic to better understand how RA is experienced by a wider range of caregivers.

Despite its limitations, these preliminary findings highlight the significant impact BDD has on mothers, highlighting the urgent need for more tailored support for parents.

What needs to change?

  • Support should include practical advice for managing BDD symptoms without enabling harmful behaviours, such as training on setting boundaries, managing distress, and fostering positive coping mechanisms.
  • A focus on self-care and mental health resilience is crucial to empower caregivers to manage their own needs.
  • Carer support groups are vital; they can help reduce isolation, promote shared learning and help caregivers navigate the emotional toll of caregiving.[3]
  • Compassion, sensitivity and non-judgement from professionals or trusted others offered meaningful relief and helped these mothers feel seen, validated, and less alone, highlighting the need for parent-focused interventions integrating approaches such as compassion-focused therapy (CFT), with the aim of reducing self-blame and guilt[4].

References

1- Lebowitz, E. R., Panza, K. E., & Bloch, M. H. (2016). Family accommodation in obsessive compulsive and anxiety disorders: A five-year update. Expert Review of Neurotherapeutics, 16(1), 45–53.

2 – NICE (National Institute for Health and Care Excellence). (2005). Obsessive-compulsive disorder and Body Dysmorphic disorder: Treatment. Retrieved February 2023 from: https://www.nice.org.uk/guidance/CG31/chapter/1-Guidance#steps-35-treatment options-for-people-with-ocd-or-bdd

3 – Gillard, S. (2019). Peer support in mental health services: where is the research taking us, and do we want to go there?. Journal of Mental Health, 28(4), 341-344.

4 – Shenaar-Golan, V., Wald, N., & Yatzkar, U. (2021). Parenting a child with mental health problems: the role of self-compassion. Mindfulness, 12, 2810-2819.

BDDF Ambassador, Mia Speaks with Bella Magazine

Did you catch Mia’s article in Bella magazine?

Mia bravely shared her experiences of living with BDD, opening up about how the condition robbed her of joy and confidence during her teenage years, and the devastating impact of missing her school prom because of how she felt about her appearance.

Her story is part of a larger article that also includes clinical insights from our vice Chair Dr Amita Jassi, and practical resources provided by the BDD Foundation.

Explore the article

BDD Foundation Speak on Radio 5 Live

We’ve been doing the rounds on the radio lately, and continuing the conversation about BDD.⁠

On BBC Five Live, our chair Dr Rob Willson and BDDF ambassador Danny Bowman have been chatting on:⁠

🔵 How BDD impacts men and women differently⁠
🔵 The role of social media and comparison in BDD⁠
🔵 How to take that first step in getting support⁠

Every conversation helps raise awareness and opens the door for someone to seek help⁠.


🎧 Catch up here
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BBC Newsbeat on Male Body Image & BDD

“I used to try and count my hairs every morning – I was worried I would lose hair if I showered”

Our BDDF ambassadors recently joined BBC newsbeat to share their lived experiences of BDD and highlight the challenges many men face with body image.

By sharing their stories, they’re not just taking positive steps forward, but also showing that talking about their mental health is a way to find support, build resilience, and create change in this space.

🎧 Listen to the full conversation here

The Body Dysmorphic Disorder Foundation. Charity no. 1153753.

Online BDD Conference

An opportunity for professionals, researchers, students, and those with lived experience to find community and to learn more about BDD.

Join this virtual event on Saturday, May 31, 2025!